No Answer

What is the real reason I'm here anyways?
What can I do to make this pain go away?
Is there a real reason I'm feeling this way? Is god or life trying to teach me a lesson?

When I ask myself those questions again,
I only find out there is no answer.
There will never be an answer, so why be here anyway?

I'm afraid my only way out is doing something to take away this pain
I'm afraid to ask those questions because maybe deep inside I already know the answer.
Maybe there will be a better place for me to live in
Where no one can judge me or make me feel like I'm not worth it.

What do you do when you have no way out? When you can't picture yourself in a better future?
The lump in my throat hurts so much, the hole in my heart is demanding something

The truth is- nobody can save me. I'm not even sure if I can save myself anymore.

Floating in a Blue Universe

He throws me his pity words hard enough so I can catch them,
The sad part is; I do.

I sink deep in the water and he follows behind me.
I'm caught up in the moment and the tears disappear in the water

He tries to grab my hand but I splash around,
I imagine myself floating around in the universe

The stars follow behind me, duplicating my graceful movements
The moon is watching while the sun keeps laughing

I wake up abruptly,
He is pleading and asking me to forgive him

I turn around and face the ocean,
The irony of being here with him comes to my mind

Such a stunning place with such a poor company.

The Price Of War

My sweet and innocent brother,
Sent to war with no purpose
Dead, he was found dead
“He died for our country” people say
A hero, who risked his life for our safety
But...How much does a regret weight?
My brother, he was only my brother
I miss him, every bit of him
But now, he is more than my brother
He is a hero.


The soldier came
And told me what happened
An accident, he called it.
An honorable accident.
He was part of me,
A part of what who I am, who I was
And who I will grow to be
I take the ashes and spread them,
Saying my last goodbyes, a tear full of sorrow
Blows with the wind.

A New Life

The smell of coffee woke her up,
She slowly opened her eyes and sighed,
Something was wrong.

She felt tired, nauseated and just wanted to sleep.
He kissed her and inmediatley knew
She was confused, she didn´t know what was wrong

She looked at herself in the mirror
A small tear appeared
The world embraced her as she prepared for the news

She will no longer be alone, a new life
A knock in the door woke her from her daydreaming

He held her in her arms and touched her belly
A strong feeling of happiness appeared
She played with his hair while he kissed her.

Perfectly Together

You opened the door and I smiled. I knew right from the start that you were going to be someone important and meaningful in my life. I climbed into your car and the cold wind played with my hair. I listened to the music and smiled, we liked the same bands. I kept talking and you were so concentrated on the road, I have to say you looked really cute driving. I felt like my universe was complete and after a really long time I felt like I belonged somewhere- next to you. I imagined our relationship and felt so happy everything was fitting perfectly. The whole time I was looking straight into your blue eyes and kept thinking how beautiful they were. My heart was beating so fast and after a while I just got used to the idea of being together, of having someone to be with. When you told me we were going out again, to meet your friends, I couldn't ask for more. I just hope friday comes fast cause I can't wait to feel perfectly together.